I think I have been very selective in my love to others.

To those I am comfortable with I treat them with one kind of love.

To the rest I try to distance myself.

I have been selfish.

I always wonder how did Jesus love the prostitute.

The fact that his unselective love gave him a chance to love everyone equally.

The pharisees despite their internal flaws.

Even his closest buddies, the disciples.

This calls for a change of my belief.

This is no longer something I want to have a stronghold onto.

Dear friend,

I know there are many things we can't agree on.

But just when I thought things were getting better.

Something would just pop it.

Sometimes I really wished thoughts like that would be vanquished.

But no. It is thoughts like these that are faith-testing.

Am I being selfish in asking?

Or is it something that I wish to see so that I will be happy.

Loving you is tough.

But loving others is primary. Loving myself is secondary.

Tapping onto God's power & love.